idiot pride

buckle up

2005-09-26T15:57:00.000+08:00

in this twisted tussle
between curiosity and self-preservation
it isn't simply about
what he wants

the virginity of the experience
of being deeply intoxicated
lie desolated
forsaken

the signs seem radiant
but yet
through experience and wiser judgement
sensibility prevails

emotions are a convoluted mess
tangles of deceit and distrust
his personal perception of romance
becomes his undoing

detach

he once believed that all
should wear their hearts on their sleeves
that veiled secrets should be done away with
that there should be no such thing as hidden affairs

in his eyes

perceived perfection

re-attach

the scandals abound
rumours wafting in the wind
and beneath the exterior
his pysche steadies

willing logic to override
ethos fading
his calibre seems
not as it once was

but then again
it was
after all
expected

with an air of resignation
leaving all to faith and fate
and in letting life run its course
he realises:
resistance is futile

his core begins the encryption

selection '05

2005-09-14T20:54:00.000+08:00

mr b and mr soo for guiding and trusting
andrew, jin, cheam, paul, yeang and adriel for making everything possible
suj for our incredible cheering
henry and chen ming for the hilarious moments
derek for his unassuming diligence
sloke for the king pow water guns
ET for the ultimate pool dunk
ben hew, yeang and clifton for the fantastic polo set-ups
justin ang for being so light and flexible in the pool
szus for spraying my face with the super soaker
all the evaluators who played the great game of polo
all the sec3 evaluators for whopping the sec2s at it
ajeeth for being so freaking cute
paul for helping with macdonalds accounts
cheam for the cool vespers
tim lui and rene for the perfect human pile-ups
the raffles squad for inspiring the nominees
all the evaluators for the amazingly passionate cheering
the spaceframe for amplifying the nominees' pathetic volume
all the guys who played the impossibly cracked-up game of soccer
seng especially for always aiming for the grass
all the nominees for the effort put in
nominees joel tieh, andrew fok for making me proud
and last but really not least
a certain nominee for his impeccable lamp-post imitation
lol

thanks guys
for the great time
selection '05

and yes i know this is retardedly late

his own doing

2005-09-13T19:38:00.000+08:00

cold gravel speckled with red
the pathway
lit dimly by a flickering fluorescent
there lay a soul, defeated

the instrument
metal: cold and unfeeling
it had only been an issue of administration
he yielded to the quick and clean

it snaked down his forearm
tainting the leather
tarnishing the buckle
of his treasured time piece

not that he cared really
hell, he didn't even notice
the cosmetics of Cindy's choice
faded in priority

the apparent executive
the consuming insensibility
the mindless rat race
all ended with unnatural surgery

the river of red
still pulsated with life
still embodied a breathing spirit
but it was waning; any time now

he relished the moment
strangely feeling no pain
no agony
he was, in short, senseless

then he saw her
the lady with a celestial aura
one might find it contradictory
but she went by the calling: Angel of Death

he managed a weak smile
(the sheer effort seemed to waste him)
eyes glazed over
an unfamiliar zen had shrouded his being
he was learning to let go

as she coaxed him from life's weakening grip
he offered no resistance
the blade feel from his hand, limp
the clatter shattering the silence

if only they could see him now
wasting away in the filth
ashes to ashes
dust to dust

the karma mocked him mercilessly

looking through your eyes

2005-09-11T14:48:00.000+08:00

Look at the sky tell me what do you see

Just close your eyes and describe it to me

The heavens are sparkling with starlight tonight

That's what i see through your eyes

I see the heavens each time that you smile

I hear your heartbeat just go on for miles

And suddenly i know why life is worthwhile

That's what i see through your eyes

Here in the night, i see the sun

Here in the dark, our two hearts are one

Its out of our hands, we can't stop what we have begun

And love just took me by surprise,

looking through your eyes

I see a night i wish could last forever

I see a world we're meant to see together

And it is so much more than i remember

More than i remember

More than i have known

Here in the night, i see the sun

Here in the dark, our two hearts are one

Its out of our hands, we can't stop what we have begun

And love just took me by surprise,

Looking through your eyes

just the two of us

kings

2005-08-20T18:52:00.000+08:00

before i move on to more interesting things..

we've kicked saint c div ass
for the ninth year running
guess thats enough said

oh and way to go, no. 9

the acs flame

this is war

2005-08-17T16:46:00.000+08:00

to the c div rugby players:

very simply
go kick some saint ass!

ka mate

frustrations

2005-08-14T19:16:00.000+08:00

i feel like giving up
but yet i haven't even really started
i tell myself that maybe
it'll all be worth it
in the end
but a little voice
causes me to doubt
perhaps it'll never happen
it may just be a dream
that was never meant to be

it seems on one moment
then off the next
to be honest,
i'm being thrown off
i'm being scattered
its quite unlike me to be this way

you know what?
i really just wanna sit
and gaze at the stars
in your eyes
but i know that this
vanilla dream of mine
may never become a reality
it may just be etched in my mind
forever

she knows it
i know it
so all thats left to do
is to wait
i guess

but who knows
how long?
how long?
i don't mind waiting
but is it worth the wait?
is the juice worth the squeeze?
of course it is
i know it

i'll just sit myself over here

an ode to anon

2005-08-12T17:56:00.000+08:00

courtesy of a beloved friend:

there was once a dude called anon
who thought he was really cool
but he uses words like 'my lordy'
and can't spell 'poetic', the fool

anon calls people sweetie
while dissing them at the same time
i would add in the word 'two faced'
but that's too difficult to rhyme

THESE are poems, anonymous. limericks to be exact.

a sorrowful farewell

2005-08-12T17:25:00.000+08:00

its people like you who bring
variety to life
really.
so anon,
it was never my intention
to flame your ass
your tag didn't piss me off
i was just feeling kinda
peeved and you added your
coup de grace
how wonderful.
so i just took the chance
and kicked your butt.
i realise that i might have
just been a little harsh
in my little essay over there
but i'm not one who minces his words
so yes, looks like you chose
the wrong person to pick a fight with

now if you're wondering
whether i'm here to smack you somemore
you'll be pleased to note that yours truly
is in a good mood now.
for those who know me,
its hard to get me pissed
its hard for me to stay pissed for long
usually lasts just half an hour.
and yesterday was just peanuts.
so yeah i guess
we won't be seeing much of each other
anymore, will we?
so its good riddance to you
and stay out of my face
and my blog
unless you want a real
ass grilling

so farewell, my mysterious friend
its been an interesting time
and i hope you've benefited from it
as much as i have
and so we part
with this note:
if i were you
i'd never open my big ass mouth
ever again.
nor show up on this blog
ever again.
oh and thanks for being
such a great punching bag.
(ooo look! a career option!)

gimme a red fruitips and i'll slap your face.

time out

2005-08-06T15:43:00.000+08:00

the crystal depth beckons
i yield
gratefully

breathe deeply

a toast, perhaps?

2005-08-04T14:17:00.000+08:00

euelpides proposes a toast:

to the young and the un-aging
to the hims who are always there
to the hers, for they always care

to the allegiance of the Trinity
to the spirit of brotherhood
to the music of the six
to the stagecraft of the acdc
to the strength of the 12th
to the endeavours of the board

may they forever
flourish.

bottoms up!

random thoughts

2005-07-02T18:48:00.000+08:00

well
its been quite some time
since i've blogged
properly
and fine
i admit
my entries are usually
quite cryptic
but thats the way
i like it
and well
to be honest
my thoughts have
kinda caught up
with yours truly
and i feel compelled
to at least scribble
something in this
space over here

to the people in my life:

hey. you guys are simply the ___. can't place any word there to adequately describe the amount of gratefulness i have to you all. haha.
well the credits roll here..

jon wong

for being the best buddy anyone could ask for and for truly showing me what "friends forever" means. i've never meant this as much as i mean it now, you're a huge part of my life maan. rock on.

michael chia

for being the wackiest dude the world has ever set its eyes upon. and for seriously killing me with your jokes. man, we seriously kick ass! hahaa and remember:

"there aint no women in these gay things"

samuel loke

hey little buddy. haha. thanks for being there, quietly in your own special but significant way. thanks for not just hearing, but seriously listening. oh yes and i think its about time i apologize for the tooth. here my sorry, even though its like 10 years late.

szus

hey gay lord. haha. anyway its been nice knowing you for a little over half a year and honestly, you've been quite a source of inspiration to me over these few months. you've taught me the ropes of the board and you've been quite a great comm chairman so yea, thought you'd deserve a place over here. haha.

ben

heyyo man! haha. you've been like a big brother to me these last few years and to be honest, i really don't know what i would've done without your constant support and guidance. seriously, your encouragement and presence means alot to me. cheers bro!

cheryl

hey. thanks for being so understanding and for just listening to all my whatevers. haha. thanks for being there for me. and thanks for all the good times! haha. since like kindergarten. haha.

debbie

heyyo! thanks for being there for me as well! haha. and stop saying you're lousy at the guitar. you've honestly quite good already. haha. smile! thanks for the support all these years!

teri

hey. thanks for fronting the band!!! haha. thanks for all the sharing and stuff. you've got a lovely voice, and a beautiful heart to go with it. keep on rocking!

weilin

hey! guess i don't know you all that well but anyway. haha. thanks for being such an inspiration to me, showing me what it means to be true to myself. hope you enjoyed Cambodia! haha.

judith

hey you funny thing. haha. you're a weirdo you know, have i ever told you that? haha. kidding. just dont do the tongue thing in front of me. haha. thanks for just being around to brighten life up! haha.

sam cheam

hey big man! haha. never thought you'd see your name here, did you? haha. well here it is. you've been a great friend for the last 2 years and yes, i miss 2.11 asher as much as you do. haha. thanks for believing in me! and for showing me the ropes in the board, mr trans councillor. haha. oh well. press on man! hope we'll see another time where we emcee together yet again.

andrew tay

hey! thanks for the great dinner and for seriously just being there to answer my desperate phonecalls, asking if there's fall-in the next day. haha. you're another one who's been a great friend and who's willingly showed me how the board works. thanks!

ivan cheng

hey! this is one person i really admire alot. he's able to juggle so many school thingys (choir, drama etc) yet have such a cool social life. haha. i guess i've gotten to know you better during the days leading up to drama night '05 and i count myself very lucky to know you personally. haha. serious. you're one cool senior!

acdc alumni '04/'05

krish. nat. vik. jx. ashish. darren. hazri. shih haur.

and to whoever i've forgotten (sorry)

thanks guys for believing in me and for just letting me watch you guys do your thing. being in acdc '04 was just a totally amazing experience and you guys have a great big place in my heart. thanks for all the good times, and for being the bestest drama seniors i ever had! hope you guys liked drama night '05!

Espoire '04 - "The Odd Couple"

Drama Night '04 - "Boot Polish"

SYF '05 - "The Karung Guni Man"

Drama Night '06 - "The Birds"

alistair su

hey, thanks for listening to my whining and being such an understanding and caring vice president. i admire your committment to both drama and bb and i seriously think you're a really really really professional performer. the things you've taught me are invaluable. thanks for being such a great Johnny De Souza, Cuticura and Chorus Leader. haha.

chainani

hey rod! haha. thanks for being so freaking funny. (simon) and for entertaining all of us. haha. yea, i think we're the only sane people around. haha. you're a great actor/OMer, so continue to kick ass! haha.

2.11 Asher '04

you guys have left me with quite alot of good memories, i must say. you guys are super kick ass funny. haha. so here we go.

cheam. alex. william. money. raj. gunawan. samuel eng.

you guys rock! haha.

..if there are anymore, i'll come back later..

beautiful soul

2005-06-21T20:09:00.000+08:00

i don't want another pretty face
i don't want just anyone to hold
i don't want my love to go to waste
i want you and your beautiful soul

you're the one i want to chase
you're the one i want to hold
i won't let another minute go to waste
i want you and your beautiful soul

i know that you are something special
to you i'd be always faithful
i want to be what you always needed
then i hope you'll see the heart in me

you might need time to think it over
but i'm just fine moving forward
i'll ease your mind
if you give me the chance
i will never make you cry
c'mon, let's try

am i crazy for wanting you
baby do you think you could want me too
i don't wanna waste your time
do you see things the way I do
i just want to know that you feel it too
there is nothing left to hide

and you know it

idiot pride

2005-05-04T21:04:00.000+08:00

its about
cruising and being
on the run
without going anywhere

its about
the claustrophobia
of the inner-city suburbs
its dangers and pitfalls

its about
the salvation and humour
found in the most
solid of friendships

its about
looking back with a wrinkled grin
and not giving up
without a good fight

its about
not being afraid
to run through the sprinkler
with only your shorts on

its about
removing pizza
from the oven
without mittens

its about
wearing orange
when the whole freaking world
wears grey

its about
holding your breath
till you almost pass out
just for kicks

its about
knowing that you're different
that you do not
conform to this world

its about
being who you are
the knuckles, passion, bullshit
and all that

its about
living and dying
with absolutely
no regrets

but most of all
its about
never forgetting that you are
an idiot

and not giving a shit what others think..

gold

2005-04-22T17:02:00.000+08:00

to clinch the gold

check

acdc '06

delimma

2005-04-10T18:19:00.000+08:00

should i run for council '06?

je l'aime

2005-04-01T11:09:00.000+08:00

i love her
for who she is

and i dont care
what other's may say

she's
"so flawless"

but i'm not going in
not yet

i'll be waiting
watching

..admiring

je l'aime

constantine

2005-02-23T19:56:00.000+08:00

i'm constantine

john constantine

asshole

comfortable

2005-02-22T21:28:00.000+08:00

i just remembered that time at the market

snuck up behind me and jumped on my shopping cart

and rolled down

aisle five

you looked behind you to smile back at me

crashed into a rack full of magazines

they asked us

if we could leave

i can't remember

what went wrong last September

though i'm sure you'd remind me

if you had to

our love was

comfortable

and so broken in

i sleep with this new girl

i'm still getting used to

my friends all approve,

say "she's gonna be good for you"

they throw me high fives

she says the Bible is all that she reads

and prefers that i not use profanity

your mouth was so dirty

life of the party

and she swears that she's artsy

but you could distinguish

miles from coltrane

our love was

comfortable

and so broken in

she's perfect

so flawless

or so they say

she thinks i can't see

the smile that she's faking

and poses for pictures

that aren't being taken

i loved you

grey sweatpants

no makeup

so perfect

our love was

comfortable

and so broken in

she's perfect

so flawless

i'm not impressed

i want you back

miss dog

2005-02-14T20:33:00.000+08:00

miss dog wishes mr dog a very happy valentine's day

all for romantic violins and pretty dog food

grab life by the balls