Monday, September 26, 2005

buckle up

in this twisted tussle
between curiosity and self-preservation
it isn't simply about
what he wants


the virginity of the experience
of being deeply intoxicated
lie desolated
forsaken


the signs seem radiant
but yet
through experience and wiser judgement
sensibility prevails


emotions are a convoluted mess
tangles of deceit and distrust
his personal perception of romance
becomes his undoing


detach


he once believed that all
should wear their hearts on their sleeves
that veiled secrets should be done away with
that there should be no such thing as hidden affairs

in his eyes

perceived perfection


re-attach


the scandals abound
rumours wafting in the wind
and beneath the exterior
his pysche steadies


willing logic to override
ethos fading
his calibre seems
not as it once was


but then again
it was
after all
expected


with an air of resignation
leaving all to faith and fate
and in letting life run its course
he realises:
resistance is futile



his core begins the encryption

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

selection '05

mr b and mr soo for guiding and trusting
andrew, jin, cheam, paul, yeang and adriel for making everything possible
suj for our incredible cheering
henry and chen ming for the hilarious moments
derek for his unassuming diligence
sloke for the king pow water guns
ET for the ultimate pool dunk
ben hew, yeang and clifton for the fantastic polo set-ups
justin ang for being so light and flexible in the pool
szus for spraying my face with the super soaker
all the evaluators who played the great game of polo
all the sec3 evaluators for whopping the sec2s at it
ajeeth for being so freaking cute
paul for helping with macdonalds accounts
cheam for the cool vespers
tim lui and rene for the perfect human pile-ups
the raffles squad for inspiring the nominees
all the evaluators for the amazingly passionate cheering
the spaceframe for amplifying the nominees' pathetic volume
all the guys who played the impossibly cracked-up game of soccer
seng especially for always aiming for the grass
all the nominees for the effort put in
nominees joel tieh, andrew fok for making me proud
and last but really not least
a certain nominee for his impeccable lamp-post imitation
lol


thanks guys
for the great time
selection '05




and yes i know this is retardedly late

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

his own doing

cold gravel speckled with red
the pathway
lit dimly by a flickering fluorescent
there lay a soul, defeated


the instrument
metal: cold and unfeeling
it had only been an issue of administration
he yielded to the quick and clean


it snaked down his forearm
tainting the leather
tarnishing the buckle
of his treasured time piece


not that he cared really
hell, he didn't even notice
the cosmetics of Cindy's choice
faded in priority


the apparent executive
the consuming insensibility
the mindless rat race
all ended with unnatural surgery


the river of red
still pulsated with life
still embodied a breathing spirit
but it was waning; any time now


he relished the moment
strangely feeling no pain
no agony
he was, in short, senseless


then he saw her
the lady with a celestial aura
one might find it contradictory
but she went by the calling: Angel of Death


he managed a weak smile
(the sheer effort seemed to waste him)
eyes glazed over
an unfamiliar zen had shrouded his being
he was learning to let go


as she coaxed him from life's weakening grip
he offered no resistance
the blade feel from his hand, limp
the clatter shattering the silence


if only they could see him now
wasting away in the filth
ashes to ashes
dust to dust




the karma mocked him mercilessly

Sunday, September 11, 2005

looking through your eyes

Look at the sky tell me what do you see

Just close your eyes and describe it to me

The heavens are sparkling with starlight tonight

That's what i see through your eyes

I see the heavens each time that you smile

I hear your heartbeat just go on for miles

And suddenly i know why life is worthwhile

That's what i see through your eyes

That's what i see through your eyes

Here in the night, i see the sun

Here in the dark, our two hearts are one

Its out of our hands, we can't stop what we have begun

And love just took me by surprise,

looking through your eyes

I see a night i wish could last forever

I see a world we're meant to see together

And it is so much more than i remember

More than i remember

More than i have known

Here in the night, i see the sun

Here in the dark, our two hearts are one

Its out of our hands, we can't stop what we have begun

And love just took me by surprise,

Looking through your eyes



just the two of us